I decided to stray from my normal posts, which are based on my daily reading of the Bible because today I am struggling with trusting God’s plan for mine and my family’s future. Three weeks from today I will be unemployed. This isn’t a big surprise, I knew it was coming for quite some time, but the reality struck me this week. With three weeks remaining I have two more paychecks, 3 more months of medical and dental benefits, and an end to retirement contributions . Everything will change and I was not sure how I should feel about it.

But yesterday it hit me. I can praise God not just because He will bless my future, but because He blessed my past. 16 years ago I was unemployed on my 40th birthday. We were $104,000 in credit card debt, with no savings (not a single dollar), and less than $6,000 in retirement savings. How we got there doesn’t matter, what matters is that God provided more than we could ever have imagined. He gave me a job that I loved and helped me get out of debt. And then He gave me another job that provided me with the career I didn’t know I wanted. Today we have a house and some land, we have retirement saving, and actual savings and personal investments. We have all this, not because I am so good, but because of God’s blessings and provisions.

I write all of this not to brag, but to remind myself that God is the provider of it all. If God chooses to take it all away, that is His prerogative. But I am reminded that God’s plan is perfect. He will not leave me with nothing. And even if He does, I still have Him and my relationship and eternal blessing from Him. I don’t know how this will turn out. But I do know it will be according to His will.