The Heart of the Matter

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The other day I was listening to the radio and one of the DJs shared a story about a friend of hers who had been diagnosed with some sort of a heart-related problem. Through it all her friend remained relatively calm and the DJ asked her how it was possible for her to remain positive with such a dire prognosis. Her friend simply told her, “This heart has been beating since before the day I was born, and if God can make that happen, he knows exactly how long this heart will continue to beat.” This statement struck me and reminded me of what God is capable of doing to us and through us. More importantly nothing is a surprise to Him.

This also reminded me of where I am today. Some people may be surprised to know about 16 years ago, after I had just turned 40, I was diagnosed with heart disease. I was about 50 lbs. heavier than I am right now and didn’t really care much about being in shape or eating healthy. All I cared about was my career and getting ahead. But when I was diagnosed, according to my doctor, I had a choice to make. I could either continue down my chosen path, and most likely need a heart transplant by the time I turned 65, or I could make some drastic changes. So, I did what any levelheaded individual would do, I started training for a 1/2 marathon. Most people thought I was crazy for even considering doing something like this after my diagnosis. But in my mind, I had no choice. I was a 40 year old who was still supposed to be able to do this, so I did! In the end, did I become a world class runner? No, not even close. I think my best time for a 1/2 marathon was 2 hours and 16 minutes (about an 11 ½ minute mile), but that wasn’t the point. Long story short, in three years my heart went from being enlarged and losing 10% function to having a heart that functioned properly and provided me with a future that didn’t involve replacing it. Am I suggesting people should run around and not listen to their doctors and do drastic things that could end up not working out for them the way it did for me? Of course not.

Some people may look at my story and applaud me for the work I put in to make it happen. The truth is God knew exactly what he was doing when he gave me the will to do the things I needed to survive. Nothing that happened to me was a surprise to him. And nothing that will happen to me in the future is a surprise to him. We must all learn to trust in his perfect plan. Does that mean that everything works out perfectly for us? No! But, whatever happens to each of us is for a purpose, and how we react to it is important. Ultimately it only really matters in the light of eternity.

By the way, I ended up running seven half marathons, three 10 milers, and five triathlons before my knees decided it was time to stop running and find alternatives to maintain fitness. But since that diagnosis I have consistently exercised for the past 16 years and I will continue to do so until it’s time to go home.

Perspective – What Is Really Important

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In last week’s post I talked about my upcoming unemployment, and while I trust God will provide, it is still difficult to think about how. Then this past Saturday, I attended the funeral for the wife of a dear friend of mine I’ve known for over 30 years. At the funeral I heard my friend speak about who she was and what she meant to him; that she was an amazing woman, and an amazing wife, and a fantastic mother to her two kids. We also heard her mom and her sister talk about what a wonderful daughter and sister she was. Not once during that service did we hear anyone talk about the amount of money or food or possessions she left behind. The importance of her existence while here on earth did not come from the material things she owned but by who she was and what she meant to those around her.

Then on Monday I went to a dentist appointment, and I got to hear about how my dentist and his family, just the week before, escaped from their burning house (which was started by the lithium batteries in one of their toy remote-controlled cars). While they all survived unharmed, they lost everything but the clothes on their backs and the shoes on their feet. And yet when my dentist talked about the situation, he didn’t talk about what he lost, but by the things that really matter, which are his wife and his kids. He also talked about how he almost didn’t make it out. He had gone back inside to look for the dogs (which didn’t make it, by the way) and in his fury to find his beloved pets the smoke became so thick he couldn’t see anything. He remembered standing somewhere at the top of the stairs trying unsuccessfully to find the handrail to the stairwell. He said he prayed to God and said he was prepared to go, but if it was His will, God was going to have to find a way for him to escape. The next thing he remembered was walking out the front door. He has no idea how he got there, but God provided the way.

Both of these incidences quickly brought things into perspective for me and allowed me to focus even more on what really matters. Perspective allows us to see all the ways God leads us through difficult times. God never said it would be easy, but He did say He would lead us through if we trust in Him. God also never promised us wealth or even comfort, but he did promise He would provide all that we need. The proof of this comes at the end of our lives when no one cares how much money we have or how much stuff we possess. They care about who we were as people; as husbands and wives, and as children and friends. Those are the things that matter and when we put them into perspective, those are the things we will leave behind. What do we want to focus on? Is it on all the things, or is it the impact we have on others? Personally, I want to be remembered for the impact I had on other people more than I want to be remembered for my bank account or how much stuff I accumulated.

Matthew 19:23-26 (NIV) says, Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Truly I tell you, it is hard for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.” When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished and asked, “Who then can be saved?” Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

My Uncertain Future – My Trust In Him

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I decided to stray from my normal posts, which are based on my daily reading of the Bible because today I am struggling with trusting God’s plan for mine and my family’s future. Three weeks from today I will be unemployed. This isn’t a big surprise, I knew it was coming for quite some time, but the reality struck me this week. With three weeks remaining I have two more paychecks, 3 more months of medical and dental benefits, and an end to retirement contributions . Everything will change and I was not sure how I should feel about it.

But yesterday it hit me. I can praise God not just because He will bless my future, but because He blessed my past. 16 years ago I was unemployed on my 40th birthday. We were $104,000 in credit card debt, with no savings (not a single dollar), and less than $6,000 in retirement savings. How we got there doesn’t matter, what matters is that God provided more than we could ever have imagined. He gave me a job that I loved and helped me get out of debt. And then He gave me another job that provided me with the career I didn’t know I wanted. Today we have a house and some land, we have retirement saving, and actual savings and personal investments. We have all this, not because I am so good, but because of God’s blessings and provisions.

I write all of this not to brag, but to remind myself that God is the provider of it all. If God chooses to take it all away, that is His prerogative. But I am reminded that God’s plan is perfect. He will not leave me with nothing. And even if He does, I still have Him and my relationship and eternal blessing from Him. I don’t know how this will turn out. But I do know it will be according to His will.

2024-04-17 – What is the True Cost of Our Souls – Matthew 16:26

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As I am approaching the next chapter of my professional career, the question I continue to ask is: “What is the true cost of success?”. While a successful and productive career has always been important to me I question what the cost is for me to continue to push for what others call success? When I read Matthew 16:26 it reiterates the questions in my mind, “What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?” As I approach the the final sections of my life, what can I do to ensure I am not wasting the years I have left. We are not promised tomorrow and we are certainly not promised a trouble fee end to our earthly existence. So, what am I supposed to do with the last part of my life? What am I supposed to focus on? Am I wasting my time pursuing things that don’t matter in the light of eternity? Those are the questions I wrestle with lately. And those are the answers I am seeking.

2024-04-10 – Jesus Feeds 4,000 – Matthew 15:32-39

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There are times when we question God’s ability to provide for us. It feels as though there is no path ahead and we wonder what is next. I am not saying this as a hypothetical, it is something I am going through right now. You see, due to an acquisition, after 11+ years my final day with my current employer is May 24th, 2024. It is not something I chose, but it was chosen for me. I have had a very good career and yet I question if there is a job or new career ahead for me. I allow my brain to go to a worst case scenarios where I have to sell my possessions to feed my family. And while I know that is unrealistic, it is a real fear in my mind. So, as I read how Jesus fed the 5,000 and then again the 4,000 with nothing more than a few loaves of bread and some fish, deep down I know I should not question God’s ability to provide for me and my family. God’s plan is perfect. He makes no mistakes. If I listen to Him and His guidance, He will provide everything I need. In my heart I know there is a path ahead, I just need to remind my mind to trust in God’s ability to provide.

2024-04-01 – Jesus Feeds The 5000 – Matthew 14:13-21

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Whenever I read about the feeding of the 5,000, I am always amazed that Jesus takes 5 loaves of bread and 2 small fish and multiplies it with enough to have leftover of 12 baskets of broken pieces. But should I be surprised by this miracle? Well, when you consider He takes each of us (namely me) and is able to take my limited abilities and turns it into something used for His glory, I get it. We are limited in our ability, holiness, and pretty much in every way and yet He is able, and willing, to use each of us if and when we make ourselves available for his purpose. Jesus doesn’t ask for much, He simply asks for desire and a willingness to be used by Him. When people try to say you are not spiritually ready, don’t believe them! There is nothing you can bring to God that He doesn’t already possess, except a willing heart, because He grants us free will to serve and be used by Him.

2024-02-24 – The Parable of the Four Soils – Matthew 13:1-9

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In Matthew 1:1-9 Jesus tells of the parable of the four soils, where a farmer plants seed but depending on where he plants, the yield is different. Some seed fell on a path where birds ate it. Some on rocky places that sprang up quickly but died in the heat of the sun. Others fell among the thorns where the plants were choked out. And finally some fell on good soil where it produced a good crop.

The parable is intended to teach us that not all of our actions, no matter how good, will produce good results. There is no perfect formula for obedience. However, we are called to be obedient. It is not our job to decide how and who accepts Christ, it is our job to share about Christ and to be a reflection of Him. When others choose to not follow Christ, it is not our place to judge. We can only share and pray for the Holy Spirit to move in them.

2024-02-18 – Jesus Makes Our Burdens Light – Matthew11:28-30

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One of my favorite passages in the Bible is Matthew 11:28-30:

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

The interesting thing about this passage is it says Jesus will free us from our heavy burdens and will give us rest. The misconception from some people is in thinking Jesus will make life easy. Life doesn’t become easy, it just becomes filled with love, peace, and healing, and it also becomes filled with purpose.

Life is hard. And it has been that way by design since the fall in Eden. We are supposed to lean on God and know He is the one who provides all things for us. But that doesn’t mean we sit back and wait for it to drop from heaven. While we still need to put in the work, we can live with the peace and confidence in knowing we are not alone. God makes a way for us in all things, all the way through life here on earth and to eternity.

2024-02-14 – Lessons From Jesus Sending Out The 12 Disciples – Matthew 10:1-16

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As I read about Jesus sending out the 12 disciples this morning. It struck me there was a lot to the story we don’t often think about. For starters, Jesus didn’t send out the disciples alone, he sent them in twos. There is a lot of power in doing difficult things with a partner. A great example of this is marriage. While marriage can be difficult at times, having a partner to go through all of life’s joys, difficulties, and struggles is invaluable. The same applies for Jesus’ instructions around sending his disciples in twos. We need to keep in mind that the disciples were still pretty new to Jesus’ teachings. Jesus gave them a lot of power and instruction on how to deal with those they encountered. By going out and having the support of another made their trip possible. Jesus sent them out with nothing more than the clothes on their back and the tunics on their head. He told them if the people of the town or the village they encountered realized the disciple’s worth, then all of their needs would be supplied for them. However, if the people of the town or village did not see their value then they were to “shake the dust off of their feet” from that town and move on.

As a side note, the act of shaking off the dust from their feet is something the Jews did when they left a gentile or Samaritan town. It was a symbol of separating themselves from those who were not like them. Jesus used this symbolism to instruct the disciples to separate themselves from those who did not accept their teachings, miracles, and healing given to them from Jesus. As I read this, I realized there is a sub-lesson to what Jesus was trying to tell them, and it struck me that there are times I am around people who do not fully accept me. This often bothers me and causes me to either be sad or angry, or in some cases overcompensate to try to make them accept who I am. The reality is God created me and there is nothing lacking in his creation (not talking perfection here, just that God created me for a purpose). If someone doesn’t accept me, instead of being upset or trying to become someone I am not, I need to learn to “shake the dust off my feet” and move on with no ill feelings or feelings of inadequacy.

And since this is Valentine’s Day, it is a good reminder that God created my wife to be my partner and the one who loves me and accepts me just as I am, even with all my imperfections (and there are many!). As we do life together, I need to remind myself that I am not alone, I am with the person who God created to walk with me in all of life’s joys, hardships, and adventures. There is no one I need more than the partner He created for me. For those who aren’t married, keep in mind that a partner does not need to be a spouse. It could be a friend, it could be a colleague, or it could be someone we turn to when we need a helping hand. God will rarely leave us alone if we are willing to open ourselves to the people God puts in our paths.

2024-02-07 – The Sermon on the Mount: Matthew 5-7

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I spent the last few days reading through the Sermon on the Mount. And I am embarrassed to say in all the times I have read this sermon I never realized how long it was. I always thought it was part of Matthew 5, not realizing it spanned through chapter 7. In the past I assumed these passages were all part of Jesus’ continual teachings, but in reality it was all in one sitting and it probably spanned over the course of a few days. One of the things that strikes me about the Sermon on the Mount is how comprehensive it is. This should not surprise me, it is Jesus after all, but it did when I took it all in as a whole. Jesus leaves no stone unturned. The Beatitudes gives a glimpse of what the sermon would cover:

He said:

3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

5 Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

7 Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.

8 Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

9 Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.

10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 “Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.

12 Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Jesus leaves no one missing and he prepares his sermon to guide those who would dare to listen, understand, and obey. If you ever have a chance, take the time to read and absorb His words in the Sermon on the Mount. It alone can be life transforming if allowed to penetrate our heart and mind.